i just read my last post. it came off real douchey-like...
i guess it's easy to get excited about what you're doing when you're pushing new boundaries or breaching new territory - previously unexplored, in a place you thought you'd never be. i'm always teetering on the edge of confidence and collapse. i'm not sure what that says about me.
of course i want to be successful. i want someone to swoop in and tell me i'm doing great and "hey - love your ideas, let's get this published", but i'm also excited to push some of those boundaries myself. it's expensive though. no one wants to use their own resources, but there is something strangely rewarding about saying "look what I did on my own". Even if it's breaking me financially.
maybe that's dumb. maybe i shouldn't push all of my chips to the center of the table. but i want to believe in myself. at least half of me has to fully commit to this, or i'll just stop. so i'm 50% fully committed to believing that i can make this work and be successful. ok 51%. i'm not sure what the other 49% is up to. probably nay-saying. getting hung up on all of the writers out there who never get published. never get a shot.
i don't want to be one of them. i don't want to be douchey either. please don't let me be.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
It's a blessing and a curse.
I am consistently coming up with additional story ideas. (that's the blessing part)
I have very little time to work on these ideas right now. (and.. the curse)
Finished my first complete outline of the Jetpack Jack game - 20 levels of sci fi adventure. I really love some aspects of this. It's very Star Wars meets 30's Buck Rogers Comic Books. It's hard not to like the settings and characters.
ALSO: New Review - Aquaman #3!
Still waiting on some inking to come back for Interface. Hopefully that happens soon. (I am pretty impatient - another curse, especially considering the comic book industry) I was a little worried about Interface. I wasn't sure it would hold up over time. I thought some distance would give me some clarity and honestly, I'm still surprised at how much I still love the book. I re-read the first three issues and they still make me laugh and seem to be paced well. I know I'm new at this so it's like - every step is a big victory. But I know what an asshole I can be and I'm definitely my own worst critic. Perfectionism is an ugly thing.
And as I mentioned earlier.. I have a huge story cooking. I'm in absolute love with it. Not quite as long as what I had planned for Interface (again - it's not like the book has a home and it seems as though EVERYTHING is ALWAYS subject to change), but still a decent length - 24 issues? Maybe more but not much more. I would love to spill the beans on this, but I can't. Dammit, I love spilling beans.
And again - I have a handful of smaller one issue stories I'd love to get started on, plus the story idea I mentioned in my last blog, based on the dream I had. I don't know what is going on in my brain, but it's a good thing. I just have to keep taking notes until I have the time to dedicate to sitting down and actually writing. With all of these stories, I could start my own publishing company. I guess I would have to dedicate it to myself. Charlton Comics? I think that's been done.
Still.. something big is on the horizon.
I'll keep plugging away.
xoxoxox
I have very little time to work on these ideas right now. (and.. the curse)
Finished my first complete outline of the Jetpack Jack game - 20 levels of sci fi adventure. I really love some aspects of this. It's very Star Wars meets 30's Buck Rogers Comic Books. It's hard not to like the settings and characters.
ALSO: New Review - Aquaman #3!
Still waiting on some inking to come back for Interface. Hopefully that happens soon. (I am pretty impatient - another curse, especially considering the comic book industry) I was a little worried about Interface. I wasn't sure it would hold up over time. I thought some distance would give me some clarity and honestly, I'm still surprised at how much I still love the book. I re-read the first three issues and they still make me laugh and seem to be paced well. I know I'm new at this so it's like - every step is a big victory. But I know what an asshole I can be and I'm definitely my own worst critic. Perfectionism is an ugly thing.
And as I mentioned earlier.. I have a huge story cooking. I'm in absolute love with it. Not quite as long as what I had planned for Interface (again - it's not like the book has a home and it seems as though EVERYTHING is ALWAYS subject to change), but still a decent length - 24 issues? Maybe more but not much more. I would love to spill the beans on this, but I can't. Dammit, I love spilling beans.
And again - I have a handful of smaller one issue stories I'd love to get started on, plus the story idea I mentioned in my last blog, based on the dream I had. I don't know what is going on in my brain, but it's a good thing. I just have to keep taking notes until I have the time to dedicate to sitting down and actually writing. With all of these stories, I could start my own publishing company. I guess I would have to dedicate it to myself. Charlton Comics? I think that's been done.
Still.. something big is on the horizon.
I'll keep plugging away.
xoxoxox
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Progress. Apparently it DOES happen.
It's not just one of those things you see on tv or read in magazines. (or if you prefer - movies/books)
I have already received the first 12 pages of penciled art for Interface from Rowel and they look amazing. Some revisions need done, but nothing major. I like to feel that he can meet a deadline and the quality is great as well. Very pleased in the brain right now.
Added some new reviews at MyComicBlog.com - Swamp Thing #3, Wonder Woman #3 and The Red Ten #1.
Speaking of Red Ten. I have to add a little personal commentary on this one. I didn't give it a great review and in fact, it hurt me to do so, but I wanted to be honest as well. I know how hard it is for an indie writer/publisher. That said - this guy has one up on me in that he has a book published and in fact runs his own publishing company (Comix Tribe). One day I hope to have my book released and reviewed - even if it's a bad review.
Something about that book did something to my brain though. It made me doubt for a second what I was doing. That I was wasting my time and that my book would be torn to shreds and hated by everyone. Still possible. But then I got that art today. And it felt great. Fuck All And Everyone. This is what I want to do and maybe it's not the best shit out there, but it'll get better. I will get better. Maybe not Interface, but the next project. Or the next project after that.
The key here is getting those chances or making them happen yourself. I'm not far off from publishing this sonovabitch on my own. And that's something in and of itself. Maybe I'll fall on my face, but I'm sure I'll pick myself back up. (I learned that from Batman Begins)
Speaking of self publishing. I need a logo and cover for my first book. SHIT.
k thx bye.
I have already received the first 12 pages of penciled art for Interface from Rowel and they look amazing. Some revisions need done, but nothing major. I like to feel that he can meet a deadline and the quality is great as well. Very pleased in the brain right now.
Added some new reviews at MyComicBlog.com - Swamp Thing #3, Wonder Woman #3 and The Red Ten #1.
Speaking of Red Ten. I have to add a little personal commentary on this one. I didn't give it a great review and in fact, it hurt me to do so, but I wanted to be honest as well. I know how hard it is for an indie writer/publisher. That said - this guy has one up on me in that he has a book published and in fact runs his own publishing company (Comix Tribe). One day I hope to have my book released and reviewed - even if it's a bad review.
Something about that book did something to my brain though. It made me doubt for a second what I was doing. That I was wasting my time and that my book would be torn to shreds and hated by everyone. Still possible. But then I got that art today. And it felt great. Fuck All And Everyone. This is what I want to do and maybe it's not the best shit out there, but it'll get better. I will get better. Maybe not Interface, but the next project. Or the next project after that.
The key here is getting those chances or making them happen yourself. I'm not far off from publishing this sonovabitch on my own. And that's something in and of itself. Maybe I'll fall on my face, but I'm sure I'll pick myself back up. (I learned that from Batman Begins)
Speaking of self publishing. I need a logo and cover for my first book. SHIT.
k thx bye.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
So much time and so little to do.
Wait a minute. Strike that. Reverse it.
Lots of things are flowing now for Interface. Inker, Colorist and now (what I'm hoping will be) a full time artist - Rowel Roque. I'm on my way to getting my first comic book created. Excitement is happening.
I have two reviews I need to write tonight and I'm not even sure what books come out today.
I was also lucky enough to get struck by lightning the other night - in the form of a dream. A nearly complete story came to me perfectly. I'm excited to start working on it. Not sure it's a comic, maybe more of a children's book or young adult adventure story.
I also got some ideas on another comic project I've been messing around with surrounding a serial killer. Really great stuff for that one. Very creepy.
And I re-fell in love with GTAIII this past weekend. I haven't had time for video games this year with writing Interface and traveling. I picked up the DoublePack for Xbox which has GTAIII and Vice City. Damn that game brings back so many memories. I played it constantly when it came out. Beat it several times and just poured time into it with my friends.. taking turns on missions or just wreaking havoc. Extreme pleasure.
I miss those lazy careless days. It's nice to relive them from time to time.
Back to work. xoxo
Lots of things are flowing now for Interface. Inker, Colorist and now (what I'm hoping will be) a full time artist - Rowel Roque. I'm on my way to getting my first comic book created. Excitement is happening.
I have two reviews I need to write tonight and I'm not even sure what books come out today.
I was also lucky enough to get struck by lightning the other night - in the form of a dream. A nearly complete story came to me perfectly. I'm excited to start working on it. Not sure it's a comic, maybe more of a children's book or young adult adventure story.
I also got some ideas on another comic project I've been messing around with surrounding a serial killer. Really great stuff for that one. Very creepy.
And I re-fell in love with GTAIII this past weekend. I haven't had time for video games this year with writing Interface and traveling. I picked up the DoublePack for Xbox which has GTAIII and Vice City. Damn that game brings back so many memories. I played it constantly when it came out. Beat it several times and just poured time into it with my friends.. taking turns on missions or just wreaking havoc. Extreme pleasure.
I miss those lazy careless days. It's nice to relive them from time to time.
Back to work. xoxo
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Interface - Inker Aboard, Colorist Wrangled.
Found a great inker for the Interface pages - Charlie Mok.
Found a great colorist for the Interface pages - Anthonie Wilson.
Still hammering away at the Jetpack Jack script. It's been a busy week so I've been pretty BLOGLAZY. I did invent a new word this week though: BUTTCUNT. I use it to describe a lady who lives around the corner from me. She takes the same path I do to go to work in the morning and she drives like a real asshole. or, if you prefer... buttcunt.
No replies from any publishers. Not that I'm surprised. Just an update.
I did review two great books this week.
SWAMP THING #3: http://www.mycomicblog.com/2011/11/swamp-thing-3-%e2%80%93-review/
and
BETRAYAL of the PLANET of the APES #1: http://www.mycomicblog.com/2011/11/betrayal-of-the-planet-of-the-apes-1-of-4-%e2%80%93-review/
and now i'm having some weird "light in my eyes" thing happening. probably a stroke from stress.
if i'm not dead, i'll write more soon. k bye.
xoxox
Found a great colorist for the Interface pages - Anthonie Wilson.
Still hammering away at the Jetpack Jack script. It's been a busy week so I've been pretty BLOGLAZY. I did invent a new word this week though: BUTTCUNT. I use it to describe a lady who lives around the corner from me. She takes the same path I do to go to work in the morning and she drives like a real asshole. or, if you prefer... buttcunt.
No replies from any publishers. Not that I'm surprised. Just an update.
I did review two great books this week.
SWAMP THING #3: http://www.mycomicblog.com/2011/11/swamp-thing-3-%e2%80%93-review/
and
BETRAYAL of the PLANET of the APES #1: http://www.mycomicblog.com/2011/11/betrayal-of-the-planet-of-the-apes-1-of-4-%e2%80%93-review/
and now i'm having some weird "light in my eyes" thing happening. probably a stroke from stress.
if i'm not dead, i'll write more soon. k bye.
xoxox
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